drifting.

Honestly, I am so relieved that nobody really knows about the existence of this blog. Except for a few followers that I have here, of course, duhh.

Lately, things had not been well for me.

I've decided to not let these things bring me down.

I would seized the every chance that I have just to enjoy with my friends,

so that all the problems that I am having would somehow disappear.

My friends, the painkillers. yes I can say that I think.
Because with them, the pain that I am carrying inside, dissolved like magic. But when the're not there, the pain is coming back drowning me deep in the sea of grief.

But I am a strong, independent woman, who just turned 21, so I'll be okay. I have my creator who's watching over me, and sooner or later I'll be okay I think.

But for now, I hate you and I can't bring myself to face you, whoever you are.

and it seemed absurd to have the feeling of hate and love at the same time.

I need my painkillers.