Mr. tiny pale blue dot.

'It is such a secret place, the land of tears'. The Little Prince, by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry.

Salam and hi.

The weather in Ipoh this morning was so freaking cold, I refused to get off my telekung after the fajr prayer.

I was happily reading a blog entry of a dear blogger, surrounded by the warmth of my telekung, which I loved dearly, as it was a gift from my dear mother. And to make it better, it was custom made for me. *virtually hugging my mother in my mind*

But anyways. So many things had happened since the last time I blogged.

Not that I think there are any readers that would read my entries, and not that I want anyone to read it *nowthat'spartiallytrue*. And I can see it's a little bit dusty around here. I, myself had managed to sneeze once or thrice, as I am allergic to dust. Dust are one of the things that I want to eradicate in my life for good.

You are closed in being extinct, people thought you as a non-existent, but for me, you are one of my vents when the days got a little bit cold, and almost throw me off the track. You are my vent, and I'm venting it all out.

So, here we go.

Have you guys read about the 'pale blue dot' ?

A picture of the earth taken by Voyager 1 spacecraft, at a space of 3.7 billion miles away.

We represent fractions of that tiny blue dot. I am a fraction of that tiny blue dot.

When someone asked me, how can you remained so calm, after a person leaves you for someone else?

How can you appear happier than you are before? *most of the time, that is *

Well, this inspired me to give you guys the answer that might can inspire you *ecece* to overcome some of the difficulties that you might meet in the near future.

The life that was given to me by allah s.w.t, is so vast. Everyday I believe that I am destined for something bigger and better. 

When a door was slammed shut on my face, almost throwing me off the ground, I believe that somehow a few doors with bright light shining through the openings would open for me, and let me have a taste of the happiness that I've been seeking all this while.

We are fractions of that blue dot, I am a fraction of that blue dot, my problems are a fraction of me, and obviously the universe is a whole lot bigger than me, and that blue dot. And imagine how big is our creator?

I feel so small, like really. And my problems, are a whole lot smaller.

How can I trouble myself with a small matter like 'a relationship that would never have worked', when there are other matters that need my attention.

It's all about mind over matter.

If you don't mind it, it wouldn't freaking matter.

I have my studies that I have to think of, families and friends that I need to care, myself that I have to attend and love, the life that I have to make fruitful, and him, who I shall give all my devotion. 

Sounds a little bit hypocrite aitt?

Positivity is hypocrisy until you yourself, prove that it can be accomplished. 

So I am trying to be positive, all the way here.

Help me. Wait, no I am helping myself.

Sometimes I would let myself to think about the matters that bothers me, so that my heart would not be tired of storing that pain away. Yes, I give my heart and my brain holidays, so they would not overworked. 

I am not running away from my problems.

I am embracing it in a particular way, where I put myself and my happiness first. 

and it's working to the extent where even I was puzzled with myself.

Alhamdulillah. I make dua constantly that I would be flourished with strength that overpowers me, and I can see it slowly turning to reality.

Thank you mr. tinypalebluedot. I owe you big time. *wink*

'You start to tend your own garden, when you realized that nobody would give you flowers.'

and that's what I am doing, bit by bit.